What used to be mine ....

http://youtu.be/SVaolE6As0Y

I believe in the power of music and I always seem to find a song that represents exactly how I'm feeling and tonight's song is no different . 

Tomorrow is one of those days I used to celebrate and now I dread because of the memories and feelings that go with it . It's crazy how easily all those terrible feelings can return and make you feel like you're right back where you started . Life is hard . Things don't work out the way you think they will ... People change , and things end . It's all for a reason and know something better is ahead . Someday this day will just sting a little ... But until then , I'll let it hurt so I can learn from the pain . Sometimes ...when it rains , it pours ... And tonight , I'm drowning . Luckily I have great family and friends to be my lifesavers and to keep me comforted through it all.

 I have had such eye opening experiences this past week and have seen that although things still aren't where I want them , I'm proud that I have not lost my desire to love unconditionally . My heart is bruised but no longer broken ... With each setback that I face I get stronger . I know I'm on a journey and it's all about enjoying the ride , so I'll continue to put a smile on my face and continue to search for the things , the places and the people that will help me find the "girl that used to be mine . "