Sick mommy

I happen to believe that being sick when you are a mother should be against the law. :) That should especially be true if your kids are sick at the same time .... We have been fighting a little bug in our home since Tuesday night ... And it has found it's way to me .... I just want to crawl into bed and never come out until I'm better . But no... I had to get my fat butt out of bed and go to work ... My nose did the cute thing where it's so stuffy and then suddenly out if no where starts dripping like a fauset. Well I had no tissues so I do what every amazing mother does ... I grab the first thing I can find which happened to be a sock . So that's what I used . It's a snot sock now... I'm actually considering using all my "single socks " as my new tissues ... They are soft and actually work quite well! You are welcome I'm advance for this brilliant idea ... Save a tree ... Use a snot sock! 

Parenting Fail

I love the "just girly things" parodys ... And apparently my PARENTING FAIL makes a perfect one. I took the boys pics one day and when I looked back at them later I found this little gem :) I guess Taggart thinks that is a funny pose .... I'm in trouble .... :) 

Is today over yet?

So today has just been one of "those days". I was up all night with my oldest who couldn't breathe ....( freaking asthma) Then had to get up and go to work ... Then had to take Taggart to get new glasses ... Yes new glasses... This is the 3rd pair. I swear they need to invent glasses for kids made of rubber but at least he looks cute ...

.. By the end of that appointment and 100$ later I was  struggling to keep my eyes open ... My tank was completely empty both physically and literally my gas tank was 5 miles to empty ... So I go to the gas station and you know what they say "if you take a kid to 7-11 you're going to have to buy him a slurpee" ... Taggart insisted on getting his own and succeeded to drop it on the floor ... I cleaned it up and decided that if I was going to make it one more minute an adult beverage was in order .... No not that kind ... A Big Gulp full of Mountain Dew Solar Plane ....

Trust me the calories were worth it ... So then it was off to wash the car and vacuum it out then off to get the other two boys . We get to my moms and I have to drag them all home ... At this point I'm ready for bed but it's only 6. Nothing planned for dinner so I picked up some orange chicken ( Hunters favorite ) and finally was able to sit down and throw a pity party for myself as I ate enough ham fried rice to feed an army of sumo wrestlers .... Thoughts went through my head like " it's not fair ... I don't have just $100 to spend on glasses ... I'm tired and want to go to bed ... No one loves me but this stupid creepy cat... Cat rhymes with fat which reminds me that I'm unhappy with my weight ( couldn't be the rice and Mountain Dew ) and just the constant yelling of Share! Don't Hit! Say your Sorry! .... Well after dinner was done ( and no it's not cleaned up) I got the kids into jammies and into bed... Ok not exactly but they are in their rooms playing ... And I thought I would take the opportunity to take a bath ... Well that lasted 2 seconds ... 

I can't do anything alone .... And yes I use Suave shampoo and conditioner and yes they only cost $2.88 ...and did you also spy Daisy laying there ... She follows me everywhere too .. So I get out of the tub and get all cozy... But the only thing missing is someone to cuddle with and have a grown up conversation about my day , my frustrations and issues ... Someone I could listen to and make smile ... Someone who likes when I get whiny and likes to play with my hair .... Well that someone isn't here and I don't see anyone that fits that description around ... So I guess I'll just have to invest in one of these...hahaha

So the moral of this story is not to make me look pathetic and ungrateful but to show that at the end if the day we all want the same things... To love and be loved in return ... So hug Your kids , your husband , your boyfriend or girlfriend or even your dog or cat a little tighter tonight. I'm lucky to have 3 little boys that love me and accept me for who I am and even though I am limited they think I can do anything I want and give them anything they need. I have friends and family who love me and make me laugh and how I'm feeling today is just part of life as a mother ..." Remember just because today is a bad day it doesn't mean you have a bad life "

To end on a funny note ... I did realize today that there is not only an Ontario Canada but also an Ontario California ... So don't get confused and start bashing Canadian healthcare when they were talking about Cali instead :) 

Happy Hump Day everyone! ✌️& ❤️

What can I say? Animals love me ...

This cat showed up out of no where... The kids fed her so now she's ours. I was fine with it until she started using the doggie door and comes inside . She was obviously someone's pet because she climbs right up on me .... I'm not thrilled as you can tell by my face  .. But I guess we have a new pet :(  

Birthday cake FAIL

So I , like very good mother had an entire Pinterest board dedicated to Taggarts 6th birthday.... I had a cake picked out to make , decorations to do ... The perfect snacks that went along with the theme ... And then real life happened . The day of the birthday came... All a dollar was out of helium so I could only get the balloons they had already blown up ( not the perfect green ones from Pinterest that I needed to transform into floating minecraft thingys) ... I bought this awesome camo cake mix and figured bright organge frosting would look awesome! I went to my moms and started the baking... The cake turned out better than I thought. My lovely assistant Danielle was there to help and we started the decorating process.... Now she and I have created some pretty amazing cakes and some not so amazing .... Well as we started to color the frosting we could only get it to look like fry sauce and not "Hunting vest orange" so on went the fry sauce/ sherbet colored icing... Well that looked like crap.. I thought maybe we could make the frosting look like camo instead! So on went the dark and light greens and tans... Well that still looked like crap. So then I added sprinkles and other Candy to try and help.... Still crappy...finally we just got desperate and wrapped cheese sticks in tin foil to make cubes and tied red candles together for dinomite ... Made his name out if m&ms and called Taggart over to see it . His words were priceless .... I asked what he thought of his awesome MINECRAFT cake and he said " I don't really see any real characters or anything but I can tell you used your imagination and I love it:)" That was all I needed to hear. As ugly as it was it tasted delicious and even though his birthday was not photographed professionally nor "pintrest worthy " he loved it and that's all that matters ! 

As much as I love that we all want what's best for our kids and want them to have magical days I think we all have to admit that we also want to impress our family and friends and show off our hard work ... Trust me I do it all the time ... But maybe if we all just took the time that we spent planning the perfect party with every little perfect detail and just spent that time creating something they'll actually appreciate like our time and attention we would all be a little less stressed and a little more blessed   :) 

I also got green mustache and fingers from my awesome decorating skills. 

Living with 3 BOYS

I know there are so many moms out there who share this very same title. A mother of boys has a very different life than a mother of 3 girls .... Both have different struggles ... Both have different blessings ... But the only one I can talk about is BOYS BOYS BOYS. 

When I dreamed about having children I will admit that the 3 boy sinerio never crossed my mind. I grew up as a dancer with tea parties and tutus and couldn't wait to have a daughter to share that with . Well... That obviously didn't happen EXACTLY like I had thought ... But we still dance , we still have tea parties ... And instead of tutus we have light sabers. 

I am just programmed to wipe off the toilet seat before I sit down and have learned to throw and hit a ball. 

Boys are soooo busy and wrestling is a form of playing. But they are lovey and cuddly and tell me I'm beautiful. They play with my hair and make me proud every day. 

When my divorce happened I was so worried about being able to handle them all on my own ... I know I'm a good mom but wasn't sure how to be both roles when they were with me. I struggle with discipline and I'll admit ... It's hard to not have anyone come home and help out. I'm still learning and still having my weak points and hard days . But I'm happy to say that I finally feel confident in saying that I am a great mother because I never stop trying to improve. 

I am lucky to have an ex husband who loves the boys and is always there for them. Coparenting isn't easy , it would be much easier to get divorced and never have to see that person again ... But in out situation we have to stay on good terms and continue to communicate . That's what's best for the boys and so that's what we will always strive to do. It's been hard to watch my ex move on and move him and my boys into a home with his girlfriend . I will admit that I was worried that she would take my place or that the boys would feel a sense of "normal family" there and lacking something in my home . But I have had to remind myself that I will always be their mother and they know that I love them. That's all I can do. I cannot compete with them or worry about finding ways to keep it equal. I have no control over how my ex lives his life , all I can do is do what's best for our kids and that's for their parents to get along. Thats another topic I plan on discussing on this blog . Coparenting is so difficult and a topic that I wish more people would show the positives about. I wouldn't have my kids without their dad ... They need us both and we need eachother to raise them. I hope that one day I can find a man I love and that loves me and my boys ... But until then I'll play both roles when they are with me and try my hardest to do my best. 

So although my house is full of trucks , balls (no pun intended ) and Star Wars toys ...it's also full of love and laughter and I wouldn't have it any other way ! 

"Camp out"

So my sister and I decided to have a camp out in a tent with the boys. No we didn't get a campground or anything like that ... We just went in the backyard . We started setting up a little late (ok really late) so it was already dark before we got started. I wanted the boys to learn how to set up a rent but they wanted nothing to do with it and just ran around like crazy animals. After we got it all set up we realized that we did not have the tarp that goes over the top..... But we figured if it rained we would just go inside . After we shoved the two air mattresses in (ya we are did not sleep on the ground ) and got all the blankets situated ... In we climed. We pulled out the flashlight and attempted to do shadow puppets ... Then Taggart started to tell us "stories" . This went on for about an hour ... The story was basically the same , just the characters names changed. I was done . So I said "lights out" . The kids all whined As we turned off the flashlight .... But it did not get dark. The moonlight lit up the whole tent and we could see perfectly. Soooo that didn't work. :) I ended up having to take the baby inside to sleep with grandma .. And my sister had to tell the other two that the first one asleep wins a prize . After I got the baby to sleep I ventured back out to the "wilderness". By this point it was 1:00 in the morning... And I was exhausted . Well around 3:00 I was awakened by a the sound of the tent flapping around. The wind gut stronger and stronger and I couldn't take it anymore .... So in we went. So our night ended with us all inside sleeping on the couches .... At least we tried right?