Time out

I have officially put my self in time out .... My feet (hands and mouth) are all hurting .... I have a headache and project runway is on so because of that the kids have decided to rebel and cause complete insanity. 

Because of the sores in my mouth I wanted to have some soup for dinner so Chinese it was . Well when the delivery girl showed up I walked outside and there were my kids ... Half naked and covered in dirt and marker.... She looked at me in my mismatched outfit and wet hair and homely looking children and literally started to laugh ... 

I made the kids wash their hands and eat their dinner ..... Somehow as I was cleaning up dinner they managed to take every blanket and pillow in the entire house and completely blocked the hallway .... After making them clean that up it was time for baths .... 

I had already given Kole 2 today so he was crying because I wouldn't let him get in .... I had to fight with Taggart because he was being his normal "ninja " self and having a dance battle with himself in the family room and is really good at ignoring me ... Finally he got in and after two inches of water on the floor later it was time for him to get out and Hunter to get in ... After calling for him 300 times I went into his room and said "didn't you hear me ? " He starts crying and says "my ears are hurt and not working" haha not true but I appreciated the drama and the effort ... So then he finally gets in after telling me that I am the worst mom and that I am a B-R-A-T yes he spells it not says it .,... 

I go to get the pjs to find my bed completely off of the little risers that I have it on .... And that's when I just had enough ... Before I completely lost it I decided to just put myself on timeout , grabbed a Dr. Pepper and started venting on here. 

I just find it so interesting that we have to fight our kids to get in the bath just to turn around and beg them to get out! I order Chinese which they love but they somehow forget the fried shrimp and send eggrolls instead and somehow it's my fault :/ 

Being a mother is the hardest thing I have ever done ... I would like to think I am doing a good job , but sometimes it's easy to get overwhelmed . 

But then there are the moments like Kole thinking the Victoria Secret model on the tv was me because In his words "you beautiful " .

It's feeling proud while practicing spelling words Hunter got them all right .... 

It's watching Taggart give Kole a piggy back and talking "baby talk" to him ...

As much as they make me want to scream and cry they make me want to scream and cry for joy as well.... They are good , smart and handsome boys who love me unconditionally .... And I am lucky. 

So I think I feel better ... Thanks for reading ... Love to you all ... I'm going to finish Project runway and go to bed :)

Goodnight 

"Water Bugs "

I'm not sure if any of you have seen the VINE talking about "Waterbugs" which are big sunglasses that block the haters http://youtu.be/EE_UHIwc-38 

But unfortunately that's not the kind in talking about... I am obviously in the tub because I'm blogging ... And as I lay here relaxed I look down to see an actual Waterbug... Well floating potato bug to be exact ... I was not afraid ... Just disgusted . It's not like I'm outside in a hot tub or pool .. I'm supposed to be cleaning my body , not washing in bug juice . 

But let's be honest . All I did was scoop it out and threw it in the toilet. I could've gotten out , drained the water and started over but honestly "ain't nobody got time for that" 

So here I soak , in a warm bath of potato bug infested water. 

This is my reality. And I accept it.

Hopefully my problems help you appreciate your lack of bug infested baths. :) haha   It could always be worse .... It could always be worse ... It could always be worse ..... 

Until next bath..... Goodnight😘 

This day stinks 🐷

Well I am blogging so I'm sure you can guess where I am :) 🛀 ..... Now done get me wrong , I have showered since I last blogged . I think ? 

Today was just one of those terrible horrible no good very bad days at work. I wasn't in a bad mood or mad .... Today just STUNK ... Literally . I think every patient had something smelly to share. My nose , and eyes were quite overwhelmed . 

Luckily I work with some of my very best friends who make it all worth while. It's so comforting to be able to come out of a room and know that Brit and Dr. Foot are thinking , feeling and smelling the same way. 

After the work was done and the messes cleaned up Brit and I headed off to see a house that was for rent . Well that smelled worse than any patient.... I almost puked. So needless to say I went home with a headache . 

After laying around with the kids , making dinner and all that jazz , I am finally laying in a semi warm bath... I guess the kids used all the hot water .... Kole is throwing a fit wanting to get back in as I type. He thinks he can only play with the shark and dolphin if he is actually in the bath. Seriously , where's his imagination ? 😉

Luckily for all of us , there is no school tomorrow ... I am looking forward to a morning for us all to sleep in ... It's those tender mercies that keep this momma sane. 

 So all in all this day wasn't great , but it's over , and I survived ..... But this water is cold so I better get back to reality . Tomorrow is going to be awesome . Right? 

 

"This pig stanks" -Honey Boo Boo 

"See ya in 2"

Well today it finally happened ... We dropped Elder Gooch off at the MTC ... I can't believe it will be 2 years before I will get to hug him again . Words cannot express how much I love him and how proud I am of this decision he has made. I know this experience will not only change the lives if those he goes to teach but also his life will be changed . I know that he will be an amazing missionary and will bring so much light and laughter . Even though it was hard watching my mom be sad , I was happy to see Hudson have a huge smile in his face and his eagerness to get things started.  

I gave him a coin with a four leaf clover on it and gave each one of us a matching charm ... So that when we see them we will think of eachother . So "good luck Huck " Is the motto of this new journey we are on ... 

As you can see I am not posting many of all of us together ... That's simply because we were all disgusted at our appearance and promised Hudson that we would all be 25 pounds lighter when he gets back .... 

Life is "RUFF"

As I step out of the shower to grab my towel... This is what I got 

I was going to switch and get another one but I couldn't resist giving it a try... As a mom , we don't have our own space or stuff or anything private ... What's mine is theirs what's theirs is theirs ... So I decided to get even and use this very "NOT MINE " towel :) 

Speaking of this ..... My boys also decided that my shoe rack (that I bought to try and be more organized ) and I guess they thought the rods would make really awesome light sabers instead

Only one lone shoe remains .... 

I know I complain and I know I should maybe even be more strict about "my space " but I suck at saying no and I never want them to feel like they can't be in my room. I'm sure that will have to change if I ever find someone ... Unless they too like sharing their room with 3 boys ,pregnant cat and a farting dog :) My life is completely crazy and sometimes I want to pull my hair out (it's not growing anyways 😞) but at the end of the day my kids make me who I am and I love sharing my stuff with the people I love. 

I'm noticing a theme here ....

Well... Here I am again, blogging from the tub. Today was pretty ok.... We are all alive , homework is done , I made dinner and semi cleaned it up... Kids seem happy and I am not crying .... So all in all I would consider it a win.

So much has happened this past week .... I have done some 🎶wishin and hopin and thinkin and prayin plannin and dreamin🎶 (Name that show) 

And have come to the conclusion that I am going to be fine..... My dear sweet and loving friend Brit and I had such an awesome experience on her moms anniversary of her passing. We had a really special and spiritual day and had our eyes opened to a lot of things. 

She is single as well , and we can really feed into eachother when it comes to how "lonely" we are and when is life going to get easier . We talk about what we "could be " and how a relationship would somehow fix everything . It would make us whole.... It would give us drive and would validate our efforts ..... But that day everything changed ... We realized that WE are I'm charge of our own happiness and WE make ourselves whole and validated .  If we do not love ourselves who is going to love us? We will find ourselves in relationships where we are filling a void instead of adding to our happiness . We need to be happy and in love with our lives before anyone worth having will want to be in it. 

I was I'm such a bad place leading up to that day .... I was mad , mad at my life , mad at my situation , mad that I had these cards delt to me.... But that day and the experiences we had changed my outlook. It felt like a giant weight had been lifted . I felt lighter ( even though the scale at the doctor shows that I have obviously been turning to food for love ) , happier and most of all more appreciative for the things I do have . 

I am a mother , daughter , granddaughter , sister and friend . I love my job and the people I work with ... I forget sometimes in my own little pity party that is may be the person helping someone else's day , and I need to be string and remember my worth. 

I received the sweetest text from a friend of mine ... I'm not sharing to brag but to show the impact we have on people... 

-Just wanted to tell you how much I admire you. . You can always lighten up even the shittiest day..and I don't even think you realize what an impact directly or indirectly you make. .

Tears filled my eyes when I read that . I did not need a man for validation , I didn't need a man to be loved and cherished . I have so many people around me that "complete" me in more ways than I could ever imagine . I am so blessed .

Well I hate to interrupt the sappy post, but as we speak the boys are crawling past the now OPEN bathroom door (someone HAD to pee ..... All over the freshly cleaned toilet seat grrrr.... ) thinking they are hilarious and sneaky ... Apparently seeing your mom naked (I do now wear a washrag to cover myself up ) is funny and way more entertaining than the tv show that's on. 

So many family members know this story but I have to share it on here .... A few years ago , I think the boys were like 3 and 4 ... I was taking a shower . In our old house (where my bathroom had outlets unlike my current one ) I had a big huge nice walk in shower with glass doors.... I once again had an audience and Hunter said "mom I like your hair" and I responded Thank you that's so sweet .... And then little Taggart thought for a minute then said "mom I like your boobs" hahahahaha

I about died laughing.... Kids say and do the funniest things but that will forever be one of my favorites and I'm sure his future girlfriends will love to hear about it ;) so at the end of the day , even though I almost puked when seeing my body in the mirror ... Even though my kids are crazy and never stop wrestling and chasing , even though I am a single mom and poor as a mouse ..... I am loved and appreciated more than I know and that is good enough for me :) 

Blonde moment if the day is me sending this picture to my friend Gina who brought this back from MN for me with the words " I ❤️Beaver " ..... Come to find out that cute little mascot is actually a gopher :) oops 😁 

Let's talk about LIPS

I am trying to be a little bolder with my lip color this fall... Not going to lie , I'm a little nervous . Any suggestions about what brands , Colors to avoid or love....all suggestions are welcome .

Get out of your shell and try something new !