"Try a little harder to be a little better "

I am guilty of each night running through my quick "thank you" list in my prayers and on to my questions and concerns .... I believe that our Heavenly Father hears us and grants us the blessings he sees fit. I find comfort in the scripture Proverbs 3:5-6"Trust in The Lord with all thine heart and lean not onto thine own understanding . In all ways acknowledge him and he shall direct thy paths" 

This path I'm on has been pretty rough,I know he has a plan for me and I have faith that he is directing me through my trials and blessings . 

I'm going to try to look more at the positive side of things and rely on my faith , family and friends to help keep me hopeful . :) I'm sure we could all "try a little harder to be a little better " gbh 

And that's what I intend to do ! 

Xoxoxo -Whit

Smile

Smile though your heart is aching

Smile even though it's breaking

When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by

If you smile through your fear and sorrow

Smile and maybe tomorrow

You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness

Hide every trace of sadness

Although a tear may be ever so near

That's the time you must keep on trying

Smile, what's the use of crying? 

You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you just smile

That's the time you must keep on trying

Smile, what's the use of crying? 

You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you just smile

We went on a little family walk and that dang cat had to join us :) seriously this cat is not normal . I can only imagine the looks we got walking down the road with 3 boys a dog and then a cat.... Let's just say it was a short walk , too many people to keep out of the road ... Oh and couldn't get a pic that we all looked cute in .. That is chocolate pop tart on Kole and Taggarts faces ! 

The reason I posted this song is because today has been a hard day to smile .... But having my boys with me makes everything better . 

Expectations

I have been struggling with this so much in my life .... I am always getting my hopes up just to be let down. But what I have realized is that I set my expectations  too high ... I get ahead of myself , I put too much into some things and I get my feelings involved too quickly .... So I am really going to focus on setting realistic goals on things that I have control of , I cannot change the way people feel about me , I can't make someone want to be with me but I can work on being happy with myself .... Dating nowadays is waaaaayyyy different than it was 10 years ago . I think I'm going to have to buy and read "he's just not that into you" so I can help myself stay away from trouble :) wish me luck ... I may just be alone forever . 

We may not have it all together ...

So I survived another event that we as mothers all dread.... Not childbirth , not "that time of the month " or even sick children .... I survived FAMILY PICTURES! 

 I like most of us spent so much time trying to find the perfect outfit , shoes , hair , location. Blah blah blah 

Well the day finally arrived yesterday and getting myself ready was only 1/4 of the battle .... Chasing around 3 little boys and trying not to let them get dirty while trying to convince 3 adult brothers if mine that yes they did need to participate , all while trying not to sweat off my makeup. 

Somehow we pulled it together and besides Kole being a cry baby and Taggart being obsessed with smashing leaves and Hunter grasshopper hunting ... I think things went quite well. After it was all over I just had a huge sense of relief. We did it. 

    I want to admit that earlier that day I was pretty upset. I was sad because this was the first Family picture without Matt...  It was one of those Reality checks , this was my reality ... Just me and my boys. 

Well after the pics were done I just couldn't help but feel sooooo much better. I have such an amazing , kind and funny family who love me and my kids so much . They help me and help pick up the slack and I will never forget that. I am so proud of being a mother to my sweet boys and love that they are mine . 

I think we all put so much emphasis on what the picture looks like rather than who's in it with us. We planned these pictures because my brother Hudson is leaving on his mission... We felt like we had to do it. But what a treasure it will be for our future children and grandchildren to see where their family tree began . 

I love taking pictures ( those that know me know that ) I love them because they capture a moment ... Whenever you look at them it brings back that very emotion that you felt when it was taken . I hope that dork now on I can view family pictures like that as well.... Although my little family isn't "traditional" or what I would have planned for myself, it's mine and I'm proud . 

So although I felt like it may look like something was missing I realized that the only thing missing was me enjoying the moment . 

The kids might be crying , my hair might have looked weird... But at the end of the day that's my life .... "We may not have it all together but together we have it all" 

So to all you other parents out there stressing about getting the perfect portrait hopefully you remember what's most important is who you are in it with :) 

Ps a big shoutout to Shannon Elizabeth Photography for making the experience that much more memorable :) she is amazing at what she does and I can't wait to see them !!! 

Embrace Your Imperfections

I think we all struggle with something we don't like about ourselves physically . I'm sure we all have things that if given the chance we would change. I was watching tv and it was showing people that are obsessed with plastic surgery , it got me thinking about what I would change about myself and the sad part was it wasn't hard at all for me to start spouting off things I was unhappy with..... Take the fat from here and tuck this there ... Contour this and fill out that... I started to feel like if I could change almost everything then I would. One thing that I feel is getting worse and bothers me in pictures for sure are my "smile lines" around my eyes . I can't hide those under a pair of spanx or go a size up ... Everyone sees your face and I felt like mine had some major flaws . So I got onto Pinterest (duh) and started looking for ways to get rid of those dang crows feet that I am waaaayyy too young to have ;) As I scrolled through the pics I saw a quote that caught my wrinkly eye...

It hit me so hard. I just felt like it was exactly what I needed to see... I would like to think that I've smiled a lot in my life ... Laughing is my favorite and I guess I have the proof on my face :) It also made me think about the other things I don't like about myself ... My cheeks although huge and chipmunk like are one of the things people say make me look youthful (which I will appreciate more as time goes on) . My huge wrinkled forehead although not my best feature is something I inherited from my Grandpa Wells who I love and miss so much ... My stretch marks are from becoming a mother to 3 beautiful boys who I love more than anything . My big butt and legs are one of the only things I share in common with my mom and sister ;) so I will embrace them as well.

Now I'm not saying that self improvement is bad , I know I could use some serious exercise , but my point is to love the things that make you YOU! It's easier said than done but I believe it's all in the way you look at life ... You can chose to be positive and lead with a positive attitude , or you can be your own hurdle and focus in the negative . I personally am going to strive to put my best foot forward and focus on the good and the blessings I have in my life. I am healthy I am kind and I have a genuine smile that has created lines to prove it!!!!!! I am beautiful because I am happy and happy girls are the prettiest 💋

Patience is a Virtue

I cannot even express how perfect this quote is to me right now ... I struggle so much with being patient . I am very impulsive , I know what I want and if I see it I go for it. Now sometimes that's a good quality but in some ways it's bad . I have had many "regretful purchases " because in the moment I felt it was the coolest thing ever and then realize later I paid too much or actually didn't even need it. Sometimes being impulsive helps me make a fool of myself , I don't get embarrassed easily and will do almost anything to make people laugh, but once again that can lead to those moments of "did I really do that?" Haha ... I like every mother struggle with patience with my kids. I would like to think I do pretty good considering how crazy 3 boys can be , but I can definitely improve in that area. I do know that I'm in no hurry for them to grow up and I try to just love them being little:) 

The thing I struggle most with being patient about is just finding stability and love again. I have been "alone" for over a year now and I still feel like at times I am no further in life . I know being 28 I shouldn't be having such a hard time adapting to life on my own but since I got married so young I have always had someone to lean on and depend on . So this year has really taught me to be more responsible , more independent and smarter about decisions I make . I am a dreamer and a wisher and always wonder where I'll be in 5 years ... Have I met my future husband ? Does he even exist? Will I always struggle with money? Will I ever have more children? Those along with 4500000 more questions go through my mind daily... My goal is to obviously be a great mother and raise them to be gentlemen and successful in life , but I also know that one day they will grow up and find wives and lives of their own . I know that I don't want to wait until they are gone to find someone to share my life with. I want a relationship with someone I can grow old with, who loves me and cherishes me . So that being said I'm sure you see my dilemma with being patient:) but like the quote said , I have learned sooooo much about myself through this process , I have realized so many things about what I do and don't want in life and what I want I'm a partner . I believe that I am a better stronger and more intelligent woman because of the trials I've been through. I believe I will be a better wife if that ever happens because of what I've learned. Love is something I will never take for granted again , I know that patience is the only way I can achieve this goal .. I'm thankful for loving friends and family that help keep me company and let me know when I'm rushing into things :) I am excited and anxious for my "future " but am trying to enjoy and learn from the process.... After all , you can't rush something you want to last forever, and a forever love  is exactly what I want. 

So ............Mr. Perfect hurry up and find me ;) hahah 

no seriously I am making a goal to just focus on improving myself and hopefully when the time is right everything will fall in place . Fingers crossed .:) 

Tinder-Ella

This my friends is what the dating pool looks like .... So if you are thinking the grass is greener ... Think again. 

I decided to recreate my favorite ones ... 

I still don't understand why I'm single ;)